I am so so angry with my aunty and uncle!

I am so pissed off with my aunty and uncle for being such an ASSHOLE.  DO you know why I say that?  The reason was, when my grandpa passed away, they just simply don't even bother to pray for this old man!  Sad ya?  Yes it is so upsetting that they made themself clear.  When it comes to familiy fortune, they treat the old man like GOLD.  When they get what they wanted, my grandfather is nothing worth to them!  **Saw their true colors!

They just simply don't even make the effort to go pray to my grandpa, why?  They live quite near to the temple, just using their hands to pray for him is not that difficult ya... We are living in the west and we are even further away, and we as in my family won't just stop praying for my grandfather just because IT IS FAR.  Anyway when my grandfather passed away, they only think of the fortune, and when it comes to the others misc stuff like his photos, THEY DON'T EVEN WANT A SINGLE PHOTO OF HIS!!! This is so unreasonable.  Alright fine, by all means my family took all.  Hey, my grandpa got not much fortune, but the only memories of him are his photos!!!  It is something that once it's gone, it is never going to come back!  NEVER!!!! 

Fine... and later on they regretted and wanted the photos back.  Oh why should we give it back to you?  Well didn't you say you don't want the photos?  Well lame enough, how can it be so coincidently my cousin has a project and my aunty say she needs some of my grandpa's photo for her son's project and she wants to choose the photos!  Wow!  She dare to say the word 'CHOOSE'.  Damm!  What a lame excuse to take back the photos but using the name of your son's whatever project!  Don't be so lame bitch, go find a better excuse.  And we are not giving even half of his photo out to your son's "project" and neither we will let you "choose" the photo you want.  Ha ha!  We can see the tail coming out from your back... We ain't so dumb like what you picture/paint us to be... WhateverzzzZZZ!

Well why regret now?  Oh because he don't have much money and now you think it is not enough for you to spend it for your entire life?  Oh so now you have made up your fucking minds that his photos are USEFUL!  Fuck it!!!  I say fuck it!!! Hear that?  We won't even give you a single hairline of the photo!  FUCK OFF!  Well you people don't deserve to even take his photo.  Wow who knows it might be chucked somewhere in the storeroom... yawnnnxxx...  Well his photos are precious to us.  Yeah, my family did not get most of the money you guys did.  But we got something more memorable than that money.  We ain't as RICH as you, but we live in pride!  Well get the hell out of our lives.  You people are nothing, but a MORON SHIT ASS!  HATE YOU!!!!!! (To whoever that is!)


FROM ME TO YOUSSsss (FUCK YOU AND STAY AWAY FROM MY FAMILY!)



Love
Michelle Farnie de Strange and Family! (Ahem!)

GREEN CONTACT LENS? COOL? YES THEY ARE MAD COOL!!!

Have been coughing since like Thursday.  After taking tons of medication, I am still coughing as if I am having TB... Loads of people have been giving me the stares... Ok I don't know it is because of my contact lens or my cough.  Can be quite confusing.  Because while I was in the bus heading down to town the other day, and I noticed this girl looking at me as if she knew me years back... So I smiled back feeling wierd and embarassed... I took out my ipod and looking through the mirror to see if there was something on my face or was it something stuck on my hair. 

And after checking for a minute or so, she came up to me and asked... "HEY, I LIKE YOUR CONTACT LENS.  WHERE DID YOU BUY IT?"  Awww gosh!!!  It was just this and it made me panick like crazy... ha ha!  Well I love to wear loud colors, even contact lens that can bring out its colors... I don't like dark colors because my pupils are already black and I need something bright to make it go outstanding, lolxxx!

Got to study for exam... Damm why must it be on Saturday??? =(

Can I Say I Need A Break? And How Am I A Bad Grand-daughter

Working has been part of my life, ha ha!  But working too much can be a headache.  Well after my 4 days trip to Hongkong which ended up quite a tragedy, I have been working straight all the way, oh well exclude the 4 days I took leave, because my grandpa passed away.  =(  I missed my grandpa, though I have not been seeing him that often as my sister does!  My sister is there like not exactly 24/7 there, but somewhere near there to talk to him etc...

And me????  Shit, I should say FUCKING SHIT! Shame on me.  I was the stubborn and almost lyke you have to force me to go see him thing!  I am never automatic.  I am so damm useless!!!  And how many times have I visited my grandpa when he was in the hospital???  Twice!!!!  The first time was when he was warded to the hospital!  And the second time, I don't even say it is called a visit... should say because I am having lesson very nearby, that is why lan lan have to go see him and no excuse for that!  Which made me feel so bad!  Wokie, skip the hospital thingie...  What about when he was discharged from the hospital????  DID I VISIT HIM OFTEN???  Almost countable... 3 times????  I know I am some kind of FUCKING SHITHEAD!!!!  I visited my grandpa just 3 times after he was discharged from the hospital!!!!  Shame on me! 

Yeah, I am an Aquarian.  This is my character!  But that is not even AN EXCUSE TO GIVE!!! Who the fucking shit care about your horoscope????  What has it got to do with it????  If your horoscope says you are not filial, so are you trying to go tell other people or even your dear grandpa that, "I AM SO FUCKING SORRY, MY HOROSCOPE SAYS I CANNOT BE FILIAL SO I AM NOT GOING TO SEE YOU!"  Is that it????  I am asking myself what have I done as a grand-daughter for my grandpa.  NOTHING!  Absolutely nothing of that shit!  I think the longest time I spent time with him was AT HIS FUNERAL!!!!  Ha ha ha!!! You can all laugh it out!!!  Imagine that... spending the longest time, and the longest hour in history with your grandpa... HIS FUNERAL!!!!

What am I suppose to say for myself....  A more willing party or what?  Anyways I woke up at 10am while my parents were already there at 7am.  Well they have to take over my uncles who have stayed up overnight to watch over.  I felt bad, I know I did help out throughout, but I think I made things like worse!  I just don't feel like serving those relatives of mine, because I hate them and how they treat my family, compared to my cousin's family...  My family has been treated unfairly and it is so damm unfair!!! Why???  Just because my father did not voice out, so which means what???  Can bully him meh???  Fuck them!!!  Don't fucking tell or give my family irritating comments and teaching us what to do.  My aunty and the maid did nothing much to contribute... Oh yes they did!!!!  Give comments, give instructions and did nothing to help.  And we as in my family, did most of the task.  Hey!  Aren't you his daughter????  And what, you are a christian and cannot touch the paper money???  Please lah, for the sake of your father who ain't a christian.  Folding paper money is like folding paper oragami...  No one ask you to burn them... just fold!!!!  Anyways aren't we the ones who burn em'????  Anyway the maid makes no difference!  The maid was like complaining.... "You are coming here to work and help out.  Do you think I want my grandfather to die???"  As if I like the feeling of folding millions of paper money.  But if I didn't contribute anything when he is alive, I shall contribute during his death... At least do something.  Yeah, I know it is too late for anything... but at least I am not whining!!!!  Just that I did not like to serve my relatives from my father side as they are such an asshole.  Some of them are nice only. 

Anyway I miss my grandpa very much.  Always remember and loving you! (Though I never show it, but inside my heart I love you!)

NEW YEAR, MORE WORK AND MORE STRESS!

Been working non stop after taking my 4 days break in Hongkong last March...  And I have not been having enough or plenty of rest.  Got school to catch up etc.... boring nie!!! I need a break soon!

我跟妖灵有沟通过！PART 1

很多人说，也怀疑，世界上有没有‘鬼’呢？我也很难解释，我半疑半信。所以我有几位朋友，拜泰国神也有，玩小鬼都有。拜神嘛，你也有拜过神吧。那鬼呢？我看你们都会觉得很奇怪吧？我跟普通人一样会问这样的一个问题。‘世界上有鬼吗？’

想知道我的答案吗？我也不知道。很难跟你们解释，除非你们自己体验到，感受到才会明白的。

好。我跟你们说我的 LIFE STORY。。。

我一直以来都有很好奇的格姓。听朋友说了之后，就去唐人街的一间店里就买了我第一个 KUMANTONG，泰国叫做‘古曼童’。鬼仔有很多种。有好有坏。看你想拿它们来帮你什么的。我的很简单，只是要个玩伴。很多人跟我说也有的骂我，说我是不是发了什么神经，跑去买鬼仔来当玩伴？？？？你疯了吧？？？如果给你妈妈知道你养鬼仔的话，她一定会打死你的。我说，‘等她知道在来做打算吧。展示满着她吧，就不说谁董呀？’

我很多朋友对我很失望，有很好奇。(全都是怪胎！) 。天天打电话给我，问我有什么怪事发生。第一次嘛。有可能在做梦。还记得很清楚，那时是凌晨四点钟，我感觉床上有一个很重的东西在坐着。我当时很害怕。我也感觉到有人在我被上做了下去。我看不到什么东西，但是我知道当时月亮很园。月光都塞到我床上了。我还以为是妹妹呢。但是转过去时，妹妹睡了，我妹妹不玩这种东西还是拿这些东西来吓我的。那个小朋友，坐了大约五分钟就走了。

第二天，我需要早上五点钟起来上班，没去想四点钟的那件事。根本都没时间去想那么多因为我家离机场很远。我搭上了地下铁，睡着了不久呢就听到有一位小朋友在我耳边说话。但是地下铁只有我一个人。我很确定。但是那位小朋友是谁呢？他说泰语又说英语。感觉很怪。当时很累，所以就继续在睡了。恐怖！一关上眼睛，就开始做梦了。 This is with immediate effect after I close my eyes for the second time. 在梦里，我看不到他的样子，我只知道他是个男孩，很好玩的一个孩子。

他在我梦里噼里啪啦的不懂再说些什么的。和可爱。我还没想到一个名字给他，所以我就叫他 boy。不久之后他给我四个号码。让我赢了不少。所以我就决定叫他 'CHAI' 财的意思。

下次再继续。累了。886。

WELL ANOTHER POST...

Been so tired lately... don't ask me why... It seems I lack the energy, but always my BBM make me in full spirit... full of energy! No regrets after getting my Blackberry! Communication with people all around the word is marvelous! You don't have to pay extra. It is all included in the data plan which I am sure to max-ed out every month. (***grins!) Made some friends through the social networking programme called pinwall. It is meant for and only for Blackberry members all around the world. I guess I am much more addicted in my BBM more than anything else!

Anyways my BB is working again with the FACEBOOK thingie... sometimes I guess the system is abit sot... I don't even know what the hell is wrong with it. But anyways can send my photo over can liao, everything doesn't matter. So long as my FACEBOOK, MSN and BBM (most importantly must work!). =p Got to work night again, yawnz!!! Got to work now. TTTTTTTTTTTTazzzz!

I AM JUST SO TIRED ALTHOUGH I WAKE UP @ 10AM!

I was still lazing in bed although I was suppose to wake up @ 9.30am doing nothing other than MSN-ing and BBM-ing, ha ha! Did nothing much in the morning other than the usual housework and some cleaning here and there... Oopsie... i forgot to clean the mirror... shootssss!!! My mom confirm will kao bei one... ha ha!

Had so much of peace lazing about because mommy left for JB early in the morning with her friends, so yyyyyyyiiiippppppeeeeeeeee! Had all the time to myself @ home w/o being nagged... feel so carefree.... wwwwwwwoooo hoooooooo! Am loving the time today! Going out later to Orchard... I am fully blinked-up! And tomorrow need not work because it is a PH. Another YYYYayyyyyyy!

Blog tomorrow~ (If possible!)

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